Forgive my randomness!!!

The things I am thinking about...

...how blessed Toby and I are...
...can't believe how big I am getting...

...better yet, am so excited my baby girl is growing so healthily...
...will she have my color hair...
...or will she have my chubby cheeks...
...will she suffer through my curse of zits...
...will she dance...
...will she sing...
...the intricate imagination of God...
...ie, this baby girl is part me and part Toby... (HOW AMAZING!)
...how much love is she going to have...
...whose going to love her name...
...whose going to hate her name...
...what is it like to share blood with someone you love...
...if my boobs are getting so big, where is the milk...
...could they get any bigger...
...will I be lucky enough to avoid the dreaded stretch marks...
...will I cry as I get the epidural...
...i know I will cry when I hold her...
...i am so excited to meet her...


I am also thinking...
...how thankful I am for my mom...
...without her, I would not be who I am today...


...how thankful I am for Toby...
...without him I would not know the act of unconditional love...


...how thankful I am for friends...
...for whom without I would be boring...

...how thankful I am for forgiveness....
...for without it, I would be homeless in the streets of my heart...


...how thankful I am for each and everyone of my family members...
...for without each of them, I would not have a will to live...
(sorry if you are a member of my family and are not pictured- doesn't make you less important in my life, just means I couldn't find a pic of you)



Additionally I am thinking... (random stuff)

...how in the world did this "swine flu" become such a big deal...
...will my baby girl be safe from it...
...God tells me not to worry...
...But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves.
(Luke 21:14 NIV)...
...why can't I get motivated to write this darn practicum...
...do I really know how to write it anyways...
...whats the point in writing a class reflection paper
when they make you fill out a survey any way...
...is Rachel having as much fun getting to know Germany as I would be...
...does Amanda ever think of me...
...will Gracey be around long enough to enjoy the abundance of family Toby and I wish to have...
...what is Heaven like for doggies...
...how can anyone hurt a dog...
...will this wart on my finger ever go away...
...i have had it for 7 months...
...will Roger and Marvel really come back to share our home again (and bring the crib)...
...how come mom hasn't answered my messages today...
...how should I decorate the baby's room...
...will it ever be spring...
...will I get to camp before our baby comes...
...i love camping...
...should we get Gracey another pal to tag along with her...
...does anyone ever really read this blog anyways...
...will Ian ever get married...
...bet Ian never thought I'd never mention him in a blog...
...can I go to So You Think You Can Dance this year...
...will I get to be a great dancer in Heaven...
...will I ever get to me Celine Dion...
...will she ever know I am her biggest fan...
...are the students of FPU as successful as Toby and I have been...
...do you know what FPU is...
...if not see the second previous blog...
...what will i do with a masters degree...
...should i get my doctorate...
...could you see me as a child psychologist...
...hey, it could happen...
...anything can happen, if you believe...
...how long do I have to wait to see my brother again...
...speaking of brothers, will David ever learn how to survive in society...

I TOLD YOU THIS STUFF WAS RANDOM!!!
...how many other woman are pregnant...
...how many are due around the end of July...
...why is facebook so addicting...
...no I am not bored...
...i am just reflective...
...where will I go on my next vacation...
...how are my cousins that are pregnant with me doing...
...hope I never have to do CPR on my baby girl...
...are you bored, have you given up on my randomness...
...does Jac-lyn know how much I admire her...
...does she know how much she reflects the sister I've always wanted...
...how can Toby wake me up this morning and say it's snowing...
...now it is sunny and no snow is on the ground...
...another opportunity missed at the gym...
...should I do the WiiFit...
...do I look as silly as Toby does when he hula hoops...
...what should I make for dinner...
...is this getting inundating...
...i should stop...
...bet Rachel enjoyed this...
...miss you Rachy...

The joy of family! (Titone's Visit)

What a busy time it has been around here! Probably the most enjoyable of this busiest time; our family. Toby and I never forget to thank God for our wonderful blessings in family. We have been so blessed to experience so much love. This is the love that we hope to pass on to our most precious little girl.

Recently, Toby's parents joined us for some well needed time together. It was my first time meeting Toby's step mom, Marvel. There are truly not enough words to describe the joy this woman brought to my heart. We had some very intimate conversations that brought a lot of things into the light of my life. Marvel and I also share a very important passion, to change and greatly impact the lives of those we truly love. Not only did I find a loving mother in law in Marvel, but I found a life-long friend. I can't wait to get to know her more and share so many more stories.

On the less sappy side of this story, I encouraged Marvel to stay in touch through facebook. She instantly fell in love and we are able to stay close in touch. LOL. Toby and I had planned to have his parents out here as sort of a vacation (in between my rather inundating load of masters classes), however it turned into much more than that. We were so blessed at their welcomeness and loving spirit already being poured into our baby girl. And Toby especially had some very special moments with his daddy! Marvel and I just sat in awe, because it was so beautiful to see such a bond being built up.

We know they will be back soon! Not because they still have yet to give our baby girl the crib, (he he), but because they were so enamerated with our love and joy for life and were hopefully inspired.

Toby and I firmly believe that our job as God's children is to lift up our brothers and sisters, but specifically our family. We share a mix of all types! And I have to say, I would not be more honored than to be a part of this whole family (be it the Titones, the Dodsons, the Woods, the Melas, etc.) - I know Toby would agree. So if ever you think there is not someone out there wishing you and praying you the best, think again, because we are!

I share with you the very first video created just for our precious little girl. It can be long, but the good news is it is special. It is special because Marvel and Roger have already taken the steps to invest so much in our family. We will never forget how special this moment was! You will love this story and the prayer after the story. (By the way - reading to baby in utero has been proven to have an effect upon later reading the very same book outside of utero! Very interesting stuff...)

May I leave you with this thought... never forget the power of family... no matter how big or small... family has the power to change ones soul... it has the power to make ones life worth living and fighting for... but it also has to power to do the very opposite...God has given us such blessing within family, don't forget to remember Him in your family...even if they don't know the Lord... they will see the Lord in you...family is thicker than water... (we all know that)... but think about it...your family will always be there for you... they will pick you up no matter how many times you've abandoned them... they will encourage and discourage you... but they will always love you... because God has destined your family to always be there for each other... thank your family, encourage them, love them, and remember them in all you do!


"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." (1Cr 13:13, NIV)